I’m scared of hurt, pain and suffering I can’t bare the feeling because I’ve felt it before at such an irrelevant level, I’m so scared of experiencing something I want so badly because I know it will break me if I do. Wanting what you shouldn’t have makes you want it so much more. I thought I was weak but clearly I’m strong and strung as I’ve always been. I thought he had already weakened me but a voice inside my head keeps telling me his intentions aren’t pure. I can’t be tainted (loved) and left. If you are to taint (love) me, I’m yours forever.